Assalam Alyaikum Ya Rokhmatullakhi Ya barokyatukh! I have thoughts that it is cruel that kafirs won‘t have nothing on Qayamat. I tried to decline them. But it was very difficult because it is really hard. My heart agreed with this. But I tried to decline. Is it was kufra? What I can do in such situation? I am very depressed. I learnt a lot about kufra, made dua almost every day. I don‘t know what to do. I don‘t want to life because it was impossible to fight with myself. Everytime I have such problems.
Wa’alaykum as Salam wa rahamatullahi wa barakatuhu,
The fact that you feel bad about the thought is a proof of your Iman (Islamic beliefs). Do not worry about such a thoughts.
The Sahabah (companions) also got such thoughts. In a narration of Sahih Muslim, Abu Hurairah (may Allah be pleased with him) said,
جاء ناس من أصحاب النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم فسألوه إنا نجد في أنفسنا ما يتعاظم أحدنا أن يتكلم به قال وقد وجدتموه قالوا نعم قال ذاك صريح الإيمان (أخرجه مسلم – (1/ 119)
“Once a group of people came to the Prophet (sallallahu alayhi wa sallam) and submitted: We experience such evil thoughts that it we are too scared to even bring them on our lips.” The Prophet (sallallahu alayhi wa sallam) replied: “Do you really experience these thoughts? Yes, they replied. The Prophet (sallallahu alayhi wa sallam) replied: “That’s a clear signs of faith.” (Sahih Muslim, 1/119)
In another narration, Ibn ‘Abbaas (may Allah be pleased with him) said,
جاء رجل إلى النبى صلى الله عليه وسلم- فقال يا رسول الله إن أحدنا يجد فى نفسه يعرض بالشىء – لأن يكون حممة أحب إليه من أن يتكلم به فقال « الله أكبر الله أكبر الله أكبر الحمد لله الذى رد كيده إلى الوسوسة ». قال ابن قدامة « رد أمره ». مكان « رد كيده». (أخرجه أبو داود في سننه )4/ 490)
A Companion came to the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him give him peace) and asked: “Sometimes I experience such thoughts that I would rather be reduced to charcoal than get them on my lips” (meaning that to speak of these thoughts was worse than burning in fire). The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said: “Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest, Allah is the greatest! All praise is to Allah who restricted the devil’s designs to mere evil promptings.” (Sunan Abi Dawud, 4/490)
The devil will make it seem as your heart agreed. Ignore these feelings and do not stress yourself out.
Our small minds cannot understand the vast wisdom of Allah. Allah is just
If the thoughts continue in your mind, just say the following:
Ta’awudh (a’udhu billahi min ash-Shaytaan ir rajeem)
Hawqala (Laa Hawla wa laa quwwata illa billah)
Aamantu billah (I believe in Allah)
عن أبي هريرة قال قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم * لا يزال الناس يتساءلون حتى يقال هذا خلق الله الخلق فمن خلق الله فمن وجد من ذلك شيئا فليقل آمنت بالله (أخرجه مسلم في صحيحه – (1/119)
Abu Huraira (Allah be pleased with him) narrates that the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him &; give him peace) said: “The devil (shaytan) comes to one of you and says: “Who created this? Who created that? Until he says: “Who created your Lord?” When one experiences this, one should seek Allah’s refuge and stop the matter there”. (Sahih Muslim, 1/119).
Insha Allah, by saying the above, these thoughts will not affect your beliefs, even if the thoughts linger and are intense.